I thought I was okay. I thought I could generously give my blessings to him for whatever decisions he made to move on, because this just shows that he has finally walked out of his breakup. I just didn’t expect it to be her.
Why does she has to be involved in everything? I know none of it is ever her fault. She’s pretty, it’s ridiculous to blame her for that. BUT WHY??? It’s like that with Bread, it’s like that with Stupid dog, it’s like that with maybe Einstein, it’s like that with Mr President. WHY????
I am not suggesting that I am desperate here, but hello, can SHE JUST STAY OFF THE GUYS I AM / MIGHT POSSIBLY BE INTERESTED IN????
I’m so sick of all this I like him but too bad he likes her thing. It’s so INFURIATING and ANNOYING. Think I am just gonna steer off tis whole thing altogether.
Well, that’s just what I might do on my part.
What if something really happens between the two of them?
I can’t possibly stop being friends with both of them. Then I would be real petty. But I can’t take it. It’s just so painful. I hope when that day comes I am already in Uni or something. Makes avoiding much easier. Avoiding is bad… but it’s ABSOULUTELY NECESSARY. We shall see, we shall see.
Of course I hope future Janice is matured and sensible enough to do the right thing. But I will understand if she chose to do certain things to protect herself.
I hate birthdays. Bad things always happen around my birthdays. Just like last year with Bread. Yes. I hate birthdays.
I believe I did the right thing. I could have easily just whip up some excuse and follow you home, just to make sure you were okay. I chose not to because you are just gonna get the wrong idea and everything will be so awkward. I won’t be happy doing it. There’s no point in me doing that either. Nonetheless, take care ya? And jia you for the rest of your days in there!
Haha after much brainwashing I think I am more alright with them being…them. Maybe he was tired, thus the lack of energy and zest. It’s quite okay when I don’t actually see it. Besides, it’s a no go. So yeah. I will work on that :)
I can’t be mad at her because she’s such a great friend to have. It’s not fair.
They belong together, don’t they?
Last night was great! Hahaha. So much fun, laughter and joy. I genuinely think that you were tad drunk. All the things you say and do, ha, just so cute and funny. Great to see you ‘opening up’ (quote from gim hwa), and yeah, I know you are more than that boring person I knew in J1.
Just 2 more days and you are going to NS. Time really flies. I used to worry about this day coming and blah blah blah, but now I guess there’s no reason for me to. I don’t know why, maybe the feelings just aren’t there anymore or maybe I know we’ll still talk and meet again.
Yesterday was fun, real fun. Can’t deny that I had a really enjoyable time with the girls, yes, Sherry included. She is my good friend, and it’s really unfair to have negative feelings towards her just because of the way she acts. But it really is irritating. For a girl, I mean. Maybe you guys find it fun to hang around her, I don’t know. Like what Elyfant says, she’s always there. Previously I was upset with her buzzing around you all the time, now him.
It wasn’t so bad in the day, when we were at the park and all. But when day turns into night, he just seems like he can’t tear himself away from her. It sucks, it really makes me feel uncomfortable. But what position am I in to be unhappy, or rather, jealous? I don’t even know how I feel for him.
Ever since his break up I always felt a little cheerful, like there’s some tinge of hope. Even so when we are texting each other, all the smileys he would spam and the time he would spend on the conversation. We could talk for the whole day and probably even continue the next day. It made me happy thinking that he was willing to spend time talking to me (Sorry I have to say this, but yeah, unlike you who wouldn’t even reply my messages ._.) But come to think of it, he probably does that to her too. Or maybe he’s just like the male version of her.
I know I’ve got no chances at all because friends to him, will always remain as friends. But why is it that it will work out with her? It’s like a smack in the face because it’s clear that I will never, ever be on the same standing as her. Never, ever.
I’m feeling rather mixed up about his enlistment. Happy because I can spare myself from watching the two of them do their stuff, and because the break away from him might just let the feelings subside. Might. But I will miss him. I will miss talking to him, and seeing him. Alright, I will miss you too.
Right, I am crazy. I don’t know what I am doing or saying. But I am not drunk, like you last night hahahaha. I’ve got no closure to this post. So, bye!
He would be the perfect guy I could have wished for. His build, his personality, everything. Too bad we are just friends and nothing more.
It’s all my fault. I shouldn’t have left my feelings all around the place just to prove that i am doing well without you. Maybe they have tripped someone unknowingly, someone who shouldn’t have been.
